The Void : grief

The Void

The world just keeps on spinning

life has to go on

all my heart seems to know

is my Andrea is gone.

Every day I feel like you’re hiding

in the clothes rack at the store

but I’m not told , “Here I am mommy!”

You are just lost, forevermore.

Oh, I can hide the pain better

arrange a face for the outside to see

but, it’s just a mask I use to hide

the scars, that exist inside of me.

You’ve been gone almost a year now

but, you were my baby yesterday

thank God for the memories of you

they bear me through each day.

I have become more forthright

I just say what I want to

I figure the worst has already happened

the moment that I lost you.

Your Dad, well he is trying

their is a hollow look in his eyes

no one can tell you how to survive

when you have a child that dies.

You would be proud of Travis

he worked hard to make laws modify

so people don’t have to suffer

and fewer tears we’ll need to cry.

Hayle went to State this year

she wrote a speech about you

and exposed her soul to the world

it was such a brave thing to do.

Nicholas made his First Communion

he’s nearly through second grade

Nick loves to go to the bank

and cash the checks he’s been paid!

Not a moment goes past me

that I don’t feel you near

but, Andrea… oh my Andrea

I long for you to be here.

The world just keeps on spinning

life has to go on

but, nothing ever fills the void

in my heart… where you belong.

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Written for Andrea’s mother, Nancy

By Sherrie