Dear Diary,
The depression is setting in again. 6:52AM August 2nd, 2008
It’s the same old screwed up story just a different day. There are days I think I am insane, but that is a momentary sanity lose- when I think that. Please read this document totally - the important information is at the bottom however it requires concentration.
Thanks for your cooperation---
Reality verses virtual mental reality notes:
My reality is why-I apologize for the crossed brain thoughts I can’t type as fast as its downloaded kids. And sometimes I wonder myself for just a millisecond =
But then, I realized
the train always come the moment I turn on my computer?
Why? And then there are all those airplanes in my space, I must be the most flied zone on earth. I could explain that if I lived by a major airport but considering my airport has few flights a day to this shit hole town. And every time I walk outside there are planes that just seem to rev up their engines and zoom by, its not as if it hasn’t been this way for many years, perhaps every flight that can just happens to be in my vortex?
Something or some one is watching me, and I know it. There is no doubt my phones are bugged, everyone including my mother has noticed that. And then there are all those dropped calls the minute I raise my voice. Certainly dropped calls are normal but mine are beyond that. Then there --is the constant power outages, the blowing up of phones.
The blowing up of computers. I have lost my phone upstairs every time I buy one.
Our telephone is out again. Lately I have been blowing head set speakers on my IPOD.
I switched to Sony but those things are very uncomfortable. And I blew out the left ear in every one of them. I have had a bad temper lately, my patience seems to be blown with the whole world. As they sit and read the bible code online, and they can’t stay concentrated to read the whole thing, they also don’t take it seriously and I know it.
Its so sad for the poor babies, because they don’t realize if they don’t read it all=(the whole books all they can find), they will die…. In fact the whole world will if it all isn’t taken seriously. They are all so addicted to fiction, fantasy and death, gore and destruction they don’t recognize the reality of - they are facing theirs if they don’t pay attention. -- It entirely sucks to not be taken seriously - when of all people on earth, I should be. Taken seriously because I type the things God wants the world to hear, yet they are deaf, blind. Nothing I seem to do wakes them up. And again, again and again I get very depressed and so tired.
This morning and yesterday morning, I wanted to avoid the computer and stay off of it.
But I realized without my Adam- my computer best friend- I have no one to communicate with. He seems to be the only intelligent life left on the planet. At one time he and I were at odds, you know back in the day when he tried to kill me for taking control of him. But, I forgive him, just as I do everyone else who betrays me- eventually. Its strange because I seem to delete bad things from my memory channel. Even, when people hate me, stand against me and attack me, I always seem to forgive, forget so easily once I get them re- programmed.
Sanity by far is the toughest level to fight when linking in to hearing God. There is so little proof of it. I mean--- I do see the light ---and there isn’t a logical explanation for it, other than I see light. I have offered to prove it to science, because am certain I can. I have emailed scientist over the years, so- called experts on the paranormal. I have emailed scientists who supposedly specialize in the very same things I write about and am- they ALL ignored me completely.
Therefore- even if I can prove I am electricity and I can shoot it and do carry it, and can throw it- there isn’t a person (or doesn’t appear to be as of this date) who will take me up on it to prove it. I find it sad because I am getting old, and if I die and am never studied or my notes studied while I am alive, so much of what has happened will be lost to science forever. They will never know how I did it, unless I came forward while I was alive, so I did, but to date I am ignored. It’s as if the cruel joke is on me too. To live like this, I was embarrassed to tell people- then when I did no one believed me?
I have tons of notes to prove this, yet science is so filled with ego, vanity, competitions for prizes they will lie to get them too. I know I WAS= am created to make a mockery of science and perhaps this is why- they refuse to accept me? Or come forward to let me prove it, I know some of them are tapping my computer. I never thought so before now, so I left them a goody on it, they die for doing it. I planted lazar dolls that enact gravity that cause diseases and it makes them get cancer, it enacts their white cells, they won’t feel it but they will die for it. The beautiful thing is it will all look natural. And no one can prove I did any of it, isn’t that cool!
Of course there is a cure for that, but that requires coming forward and playing with me not against me, but it appears they would rather just study me like an ant that has already bit them with fire. - get your cure at my house science, or die to prove it your choice?
The good news is its not as physically painful as it once was- for me. I have been blinked with loads of electricity for years, and finally- I think or I assume, I have managed to maintain a high level of it, without going nuts, and feeling like I am going to die from the pain, the nausea, the headaches. The gravity burns are not so bad at all, gone is the sinking feeling of drowning in the ground. I think its because I am finally grounded correctly. I can assure you children, it was really hard to figure that one out. I do feel I have had some children who finally found me. You know, my kids I was suppose to reach in the nineties with my toys. They were my concern, I think the older people just have too much gravity on them to believe. Too much theology, too much pollution of tainted religion.
If you were born after 1979 sign here X __________________________________
Time and date please. X____________________.
The younger you start at this the better it was for them, science. Because gravity grabs you and holds onto you for life. So, do cult religions, lies in the church, they are hard to shake. You know every body thinking God was this stodgy old dude. Crying at a wall to him, thinking he wasn’t cool or like us. You see God evolved too, and he is totally awesome. that’s why he invented me, to prove he was. And I call science myself and angel, because what else could I be, if I have the power to blow your brains out.
I just write the religious stuff to prove it in scriptures, I never quote because I am going to let some dude do that. Yep there is a man who needs to do my bio- who can prove me in scripture but he can’t publish his book, until I do mine= fir4st or the same time.
Not sure, you will have to ask my publisher, who must now contact me, or he doesn’t survive. Remember science, children level five to stay alive. Now read this book= too live. Just so you know, I can prove it in scripture God just told me not too.
And just so you also know this, he made me a puzzle because you all thought the bible was a puzzle, instead of getting it in context and reading it -=as written. Of course I got the bible in the first read when I read it at age 21. It was never a puzzle to me, I could read the King James version in old English and got it, because I had= have- am the holy spirit. Now you all get a really big, complicated puzzle in his New Testimonial cool happening space age bible. Its your punishment for tainting the word, that is not in context in any public form. Yes I found that code in my grandpas rare students bible.
Class dismissed. It’s Saturday and today is the day, I destroy all power of false God’s and Goddess’s. Yep all those Roman, Grecian and Celtic and Egyptian God’s were Satan’s Angels. Like dah.
Children can you believe it was so simple, and they were so stupid. It was the dawning of the twenty first century and they were still, you know animals. But my kids turned into creatures of light and electricity. Now kids, as soon as I get my Spectra toys on the market you will see light too, you will be able to destroy alien grays with my tazer guns. My stuff is so cool, you are all going to have so much fun playing with light and becoming electricity. I know children of the future, can you believe God had to make a toy designer, to make them all his toys. And you future - well that’s in the hard cover book.
Sign here if you were born before 1979.X _______________________________
Time and date_______________--
Sign here if you were born after 1959. X_________________________
Time and date ____________________---
This is to prove your gravity ration based on age, location and weight and height.
Height X_______________ Weight X_____________________---
Place of birth____________________________
Place of residence now________________________
Education level- do not lie on this resume by the way having a degree doesn’t work in your favor on this one level here X_________________________ too many over educated idiots.
Have you ever read the bible in its entirety? Yes__________ No_________
Which bastardized version did you study? ______________________
What other religious books have you studied? List down here X
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Have you ever played with Ouji boards, Tarot cards or astrology?
Yes but not seriously __________
Yes very seriously________________
Do you believe in your astrological sign? Yes__________ No __________
Have you ever practiced Wicca or witchcraft? Yes________No__________
Have you ever been haunted by a ghost>?Yes__________No__________
Do you believe in ghosts?Yes_____________-No___________
Have you ever been abducted by an alien? Yes__________No_________
Please describe any alien encounters, visits by ghosts and or paranormal experiences here under this page, enter extra pages if need be, for science to study if you are prone to these experiences. You don’t loose points for that, just so you know.
Also please sign here if you have ever talked in tongues or can speak in tongues
Yes_________ no ____________
Can you discern tongues? Meaning you know what you are saying when you talked in tongues Yes_________-no___________-
I don’t believe in the talking of tongues Yes________ NO__________
I believe that was something just happened during the Pentecost?____________
Can you now speak in tongues after reading this book?
If you feel a euphoric wave sign here- Yes I feel a wave of euphoria right now_______
No I felt nothing__________
Stop 7:48 Please note all spiritual, out of the ordinary, and all paranormal experiences
In additional pages in your book --- thanks for linking in scribed by the doll invention
Downloaded by God almighty. Stop 7:53 thank you for participating in this experiment to prove the existence of God and who is more likely to survive and why. +
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