making it thru the tough times were the darkest times I have ever had. I have dealt with life's up's, Life's downs, life's good and life's bad.
The sun has set a many a day and to God I pray for strength to make it thru the night as I fight the demons that have grown inside the caverns of my mind.
but as the new day drops a mist of dew on suddenly the mystery becomes clear to me that I cannot make thru these tribulations alone. I have got to find a source of power before the sins in my life devour my last mustard seed of faith and consumes my soul.
see no one could ever know the fight I fight inside of me, when it's not me against the world, it's me against me and the worst part of the tragedy is somehow I always lose. I lose because I chose to follow the road that leads to the rsduction of right and the generation of wrong, and even though I try to sing a differnt song it always comes out wrong and I feel like I could never be right again.
but just as the snow falls and chills the ground on the first winters day, God has come into my life and made me look at life in a whole new way. I know see that precious seeds of positivity have been planted inside of me and know it is time for them to bloom.
it is time for me to let the light within me sign, time for me to remove myself and allow god to heal me from being blind. Blind to the manisfestaion of the savior that has impregnated my soul. I now know that I have got to stop running from the calling that has been placed on my heart.it is time for to begin with a brand new start.
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