I once thought it would be great to see far into the future,
One night I saw a beautiful blue falling star rip across the heavens so I made a wish, I wished for the power to see what my life was going to be like,
I saw great things like getting married to the one I loved,
Having children and seeing how it felt to hold their little hands,
cuddling them at bedtime and sweet kisses on their noses,
I saw so much that was going to happen, but then I saw something troubling. My wife go through a very painful cancer, saw her eyes when she died, the pain in them and the grief of leaving this world....The feelings of lonliness, the depression Id suffer, the accident my first born would have, leaving her paralyzed.....
A nuclear bomb accidently going off in the middle east and killing millions of people, a world drought that caused people to die of hunger from lack of food, .............
But that wasnt the worst part....The worst part was...finally seeing what makes life exciting...what makes life wonderful...
Hope and surprise, not knowing what will happen from day to day...Having hope even if the worst scenario is realized.....
By knowing everything I have truly lost everything.....
I couldnt have known how all of the bad stuff in my life seen in just an instance would effect me...It was over whelming and I couldnt handle it...
My wife is pregnant and in the hospital, my kids will grow up and when they are old enough
let them know that I love them,
I never meant to hurt them,
but I couldnt go on, I couldnt see my wifes eyes that way again,
I am in the garage and I have passed away by now.......
I cried myself to sleep.....and if you could turn the car off...I would appreciate it..
Thank you...
Originally Posted On Site: 2006-08-06 01:51:09
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