I never new how complicated, my own mind could be,
Last night I went swimming in a puddle that turned into a sea,
It filled my every crevice, and the thing that you call space,
Was inside of my head , I never want to leave this place,
I swam with dolphins and heard them echo out my name,
An underwater dance we spiraled up to the beaches sand,
I said my goodbyes as my new friends waved their joyious fins,
An ounce of pain was felt cause I am missing them again,
No politics or religion, no wars to interrupt life,
A family joined by love, something we all see as hype,
I walked the empty coast line with sandcrabs at my feet,
Their eyes gaized up and down and one was saying "Sweet",
I dont understand where Im suppose to go,Seems my life is just a dream,
Id rather stay unconcious or hidden, this is how it seems,
The sunset fell upon me and the moon sparkled reflecting light,
On the oceans I could hear the crashing of whales far from site,
And the seagulls chasing meals in the breaking of the surf,
Why cant I just stay asleep now Im in heaven and not on earth,
Well I started to hunger so I climbed the tallest palm,
ate a couple bananas, and then they were all gone,
I scanned the distant horizon looking as far as I could see,
No humans in this world Im lost, content Im feeling free,
I dont have to wake up early,
I dont have to get a job,
I can just relax and soak in life not ever getting robbed,
I can dance upon the waves that filter thru my toes,
It tickles makes me giggle but what am I giggling for,
I dont have no one to hold and each days growing long,
A dream inside another dream keeps you close and I feel warm,
With every night that passes and every day slides by,
I start to lose the taste of a perfect world and bright blue skies,
I need mediocracy, I need hate, joy and I need love,
I need to believe in one true God, One god up above,
I never thought my life was worth it or the days that lyed ahead,
Depressed I wandered to my room and tucked myself in bed,
I didnt play, I didnt laugh, I hid within myself,
Never had the power to reach out but I was there starving for your help,
Praying someone wakes me so I can really feel alive,
The sandcrabs won theres no more fun their meal has arrived,
As I lay upon the beach and finally myself is giving in,
I feel the claws pulling and tugging at my skin,
Wished I never committed the suicidal task, wish I could change the past,
Out of Gods graces Hell now is comming and I am falling fast,
but I welcome the pain now that love has left my life,
I ask for a second chance, to God I pray throughout the night,
I promise to believe and follow your commandments and your word,
Ill help those in need and Ill listen and I will serve,
Ill open my heart and Ill open my mind,
I accept you lord Jesus, please help my soul to finally shine,
Ill give up all the drugs Ive done Ill pursue a way thats right,
Ill throw out all my hatred and be grateful for my life,
Ill bow down before you and do whatever you might say,
I realize I hurt the ones that were my only hope and lasting rays,
If you walk beside me and listen to the beating of my heart,
as we make footprints in the sand and you give me a new start,
Ill glow a positive light and guide those that are in need,
Give to the poor and feed those who need to feed,
Well after all night praying his father came to walk,
He told him how his love was there,
In his heart it always was,
He said, " Im glad you finally see my child this world is my gift",
"Only true belief and faith can give you wings so you can lift,"..................
With that said I woke up in my bed,
The smell of salty air and my skin was sun burnt red,
Guess it wasnt a dream after all ,
More of a wake up call,
So now every day I live feeling blessed and not the fool,
I never complain anymore And I teach the needy at the school,
They look at me with eyes that shine and I feel what they need,
I never worry about money and I teach them about greed,
I Show them paths to walk and I always take the lead,
I protect them from harm and give them all my love,
but most of all I share the joy of our father whose above,
And I look up to the sky.....
And say "Thank you Father", thanks for being there when I was in need....
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