Trusting others is not one of my strengths. In fact, it's pretty far down on the bottom of my list when it comes to that area. I get so angry because I sometimes let how humans have hurt me or given me a reason to trust them when I shouldn't have, affect the trust I have in God. Obviously, God is nothing like them and will never hurt me or let me down and I should trust completely, all the time, with all my heart in him. Of course, deep down I believe he knows what's best for me, but it doesn't stop the doubt that continues to reappear, clouding my vision of him. I hate this. I don't want to feel this way.
Regardless, he continues to astonish me, and somehow each time I doubt him, I end up trusting more than I did before. He'll take what I'm praying for, hoping for, wanting, most of the time not even NEEDING and give me something 3 times better. Each time I can't help the feeling I get. The way I tremble because of what he's done for me. It leaves me wanting to slap myself in the face for being so stupid, for doubting him even a little. He restores my trust consistently and I don't deserve anything that he's done for me.
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