Abandoned
Why did you go and not say goodbye
I lay there in your bed
All I could do was cry, why!?
It was night,
You were no where in sight.
I stared at the items you left behind
I touched them and smelt them
And made them mine
I cried for the times I had spent with you
I cried because I felt alone
I cried, because you were just not coming home
One day I grew up in a hurry
Too many people to look after in your place
He blamed me instead because I had your face
Head bowed I walked home approaching our street
The yellow and white kitchen floor
The angry fist marks left in the door
“You see child, your brain is out of sorts”
“The chemical messengers are misfiring and making you weak”
Take these blue pills, pink pills and then we will speak
It’s not your fault, this I have seen
You suffer from depression and you’re only fifteen
Thirty now, I sit alone in my bed
It was my choice you see
I want to cry
Here are my reasons why..
I hurt you because I myself was broken
It never made sense to me until I heard it spoken
If you left, I’d now understand
That my wildest dream had come true
That my largest fear was not of you
But of loosing without choosing to
I lived in the sad room for so long
I stayed in that room until I heard your song
I tried to come out, what beautiful days!
I wanted to feel normal in so many ways..
He said..
“In this time I’ve loved you and I have never left you”
“Why did you believe that I would, when I did all that I could”
Shamefully my errors were placed before me
A slave to me was all I could conceive
“Dear God, forgive me and let it be what it must”!
“I never wanted to do that – I have lost his trust”
Time to sit back and to grow
Time to change, to cry happy tears
Time to sit on top of all of these fears.
Originally Posted On Site: 2006-09-26 02:18:34
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