Let me just sit here
in this darkness
that isolates me;
that pulls me further away
from my friends.
I could use some time
away from people.
If I light a candle,
I could see all those
from whom I am trying
to get away.
I just want this darkness
for now.
Perhaps later
I will accept the light.
Leave me
in the dark unconscious.
I don't want to wake up
and face my life.
I like not having
anything to worry about.
This way,
I have no need for money.
I have no temptation.
I have no guilt.
I no longer
have to face
another day,
doing things that I hate.
I don't have to tell her
that I don't love her anymore,
or, perahps, that I never did.
Just leave me
in the black, empty room
so that I can pray
and ask for forgiveness
and then maybe I will feel
good enough about myself
to come out
and face the light
and my life.
Originally Posted On Site: 2007-07-08 20:42:36
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