the greatest addiction we have is to ourselves.
to be addicted to who were are,
everyday repeating ourselves again,
the same pains,
the same glories,
the same stupidities...
the same angers,
and the same disappointments,
the ever recurring syndromes we call the self.
the self that forever yearns for the same things over and over again,
the self that asks for more of the same,
quenches thirst with void,
and feeds hunger with dirt...
questions breeding questions,
and answers never remembered,
forgetfulness a bliss always forgotten,
repetition is the venom.
to find a new self again is like a planet orbiting a very wide arc,
and change happens one millimeter at a time,
such a long way to go for a date,
one that can reconcile both ends,
like poles of a magnet that never attract....
the curve is long,
the arc is wide,
and time drips on, a millisecond at a time...
what comes next is more of the same,
the addiction never wanes,
and deeper still it prevails,
down to the core it digs.
into darkness and heat,
lack of air,
suffocation for identification,
pleasure in the deep,
addiction breeds addiction.
the self grows more complex,
in its demands and needs,
the same broken dreams,
the usual nightmares that ends in a scream...
addiction to comfort,
addiction to a life of pain,
addiction to stress,
addiction to a losing game...
addiction is the same thing all over again,
every detail in one’s life repeated everyday,
every attraction is an addiction,
every conviction is an addiction
every state of mind is an addiction,
faith is an addiction,
every comfort zone is an addiction,
every source of intensity or pleasure is an addiction.
an opinion is an addiction.
picking fights is an addiction.
Q: what is a human being after all?
A: a bundle of addictions.
every human being is a bundle of addictions.
every characters is a unique blend of addictions.
Pavlov made the most important discovery of the century and that is he put his finger on the fact that we are made of habits.
a human being, like a dog, can be conditioned to react in any way desired if one knew what triggers him, and how to manipulate what triggers what in order to condition.
the ego is the easiest and first thing to offend (trigger)
triggering the ego results with anger.
offending someone’s faith also attacks the ego and results with an angry reaction.
demeaning someone’s opinion results with anger.
just like Pavlov’s dog, ring this particular bell, and the dog starts drooling.
caress someone’s ego, and you’ll have him floating and loving you and coming closer to you.
we are all addicted to what gives us a sense of pleasure.
pleasure is always intense.
pleasure is always an intense feeling. if the feeling is not intense enough, then it’s not pleasurable enough.
we are addicted to what gives us pleasure.
we are addicted to what gives us intensity.
there is pleasure in every kind of intensity we experience whether it is stress or anger or laughter or physical or mental or psychoactive or spiritual or natural...
some of us are addicted to pain and sorrow, for there is also a certain intensity in the dark.
some of us are addicted to an escape on lucid wings.
some of us are addicted to what causes others pain.
the list is endless and the sources of addiction are infinite.
the question is:
can we consciously choose our addictions?
we can choose some consciously and the rest fall on us unconsciously?
some of them grow with us like flowers and some grow with us like weeds.
can we root out the weeds? All the weeds?
an addiction gives us a sense of continuity,
because an addiction defines a certain pattern in behavior, response, action, reaction...
this bundle of addiction / action / reaction defines the character you see in front of you whether is it yourself, your lover, your parent, your friend, whoever.
when you say you “KNOW” somebody, it means you are “FAMILIAR” with the response, action, reaction of that particular person.
you may also be aware of that person’s history.
in short, you mean you are familiar with that person’s addictions to self love, greed, or joyfulness, benevolence, aggressiveness, actions, reactions...
so what do you think you know about me?
what do you think you know about yourself?
what do you think you know about the others around you, near and far?
you think you really know?
think again!
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